Day 3…Elf on the Shelf

 

This little elf is getting quite creative! We woke up this morning and she had built a hammock in my spider plant!

Dad  had his surgery today….It sounds like he was a pretty big mess in there.  Mom says he is doing good…much better than last time.  He has to stay in the hospital for two days. Tomorrow they are taking him off of the morphine pump. I sure hope he just continues to do good…the last time he had this surgery it was just so hard for him. Lots of prayers that this time, he recovers quickly! Love you Daddy! Thank you all for your prayers and support!!

Day 2…Gretchen Loves Goldie

 

This morning when we woke up, Gretchen was watching Goldie swim around and around.  Later on in the day she tried to hide behind between the fish tank and the wall, but Livie spotted her right away!

Olivia wrote her Santa letter today so that Gretchen could deliver it for her tonight.  She also made Gretchen a little care package full of pictures she drew of her and even some extra elf hats that she had made out of paper towels and tape…just in case she needed them. Oh my Sweet Livie…you are always so thoughtful and your imagination always amazes me!

We have a little Visitor….

 

Today, when Livie got home from school, there was a little visitor at our house.  She showed up while Livie was at school and said she was from the North Pole.  She explained that Santa had sent her to watch over Olivia and Kaden and that every night she would report back to him and tell him all of the wonderful things the kids did that day. She did say that if they were naughty that she would have to tell him that too.  The kids cannot touch her because she could lose her Christmas Magic and then she would not be able to fly back to Santa at night.  We had a little mis-hap tonight and Kaden knocked her out of the tree, but it’s all good! I explained to Livie that she should have enough Christmas Magic to get back to Santa and if she needed some help that I could purchase a plane ticket for her. : ) Olivia was just fascinated with her and she asked all kinds of questions! She talks to her and introduces her to her friends…she is very concerned about her flying all the way to the North Pole tonight and is very worried that she will not come back. 

Meet Gretchen, Our Elf on the Shelf:

 

 

She has a very serious job to do, keeping an eye out on our two wild kiddos! But, sometimes she gets a little lazy …and I think she’s a little drunk on Candy Canes  because she was sure being a little indecent tonight! hahahaha

 

Check back daily for more updates on our little Elf on The Shelf.  We have heard she likes to find new places to hang out after each trip to the North Pole…I wonder where she will be tomorrow?!

Trying Again….

Recently we decided to try to have another baby. Pure joy is what I felt! We have two beautiful, wonderful children, and having one more beautiful, wonderful child was itching through my body and nothing was making it go away. My family was concerned…confused. Why would I want to go through all that again with my body? Didn’t I remember how miserable I was?! Well, let me tell you now, I was a little confused too, but that feeling would just not go away! I really thought we were done…two was enough.

Now, three months later, as I am sitting here surrounded by anger and sadness…I have decided it was just too much. I can’t do it. The pain my body was in after stopping my birth control was beyond any pain I have ever felt since being diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. I am sure that the constant up all nights with Kaden while he was going through multiple ear infections and then tubes, along with the stress of trying to keep up with my daily chores while feeling so much pain was not helping at all.

This is not easy for me. I am now struggling to understand why my body is constantly fighting against what I want and I am furious and so sad that this may just not be in the cards for us. I don’t remember a time when I did not want to be a Mommy someday and I now I am and it’s amazing! I need to move past this, focus on giving the two I have all I’ve got and get my body healthy again. I have gained nearly 20 pounds from lack of exercise I was able to do and the depression that came with the pain I was in while trying to conceive. I guess the best thing for me to do now is to channel this anger and pain into fighting to get healthy and lose weight again.

Trying to get pregnant is still something I would like to think about for the future…maybe when Kaden is a little older and does not need so much of my time….maybe when I reach my goal weight and I feel like my body is in a healthier place…I just don’t know yet.

Thanks to those of you who supported me and for all of the prayers. I guess those who were concerned were right and I am sorry. Feeling this way is so frustrating and depressing. I just thought I could fight against this….